thumpthump

this evening im wondering if ive eaten too much bread, ive baked a fair amount, and my pants are tight. the last loaf wasnt all done in the middle and my middle is doughy because i couldnt not eat it, mustnt waste bread, thats what they say. and my heart hasnt thumped much today. probably because i went to the doctor, or the nurse that is, the nurse that is my doctor and thinks i am crazy because i have told her i have asthma at night and my heart thumps at night but only at night i swear. the asthma left so thats not a problem and the heart thumpthump doesnt bother me to be honest. i only report it to her because i am supposed to be worried but im not worried, i like to feel the flopping heart thumpthump. it isnt disturbing or painful but strange. i dont notice my heart otherwise. its nice to be reminded thumpthump im alive.