Crazy, thats me.

I officially designate myself a crazy person. I have a tendency to get stuck in a loop, my mind will keep working on something, often something relatively mundane or that I cant do anything about, and it takes me quite a while to move on. Lately Ive been stuck in a cloth diaper loop. I have got the types, the pros and cons of this and that, down. Now it is just decision-making and deal-finding that occupies an embarrassing number of hours. embarrassing. Deciding what to buy is complicated by the tightness of the budget, but at least I can be reassured to know that overall I will be saving money in the long run using cloth over disposables - especially if I were to buy some relatively eco-friendly disposables like seventh generation. Besides even so called biodegradable diapers will not actually disintegrate in a landfill anyhow, as even banana peels are well preserved in the ecology of a landfill. Anyhow, I have almost decided on what I will be buying, and they will be relatively boring and economical, though the cute and newfangled and organic and fluffy etc are tempting, just pricey. But the point is, I am getting ever closer to decision making, though being fully psychotic during the process. Meanwhile I have developed a equally crazy day dream of opening a store - a real bricks and mortar store - in baltimore for cloth diapers, wraps, baby things made by maryland work at home moms, things I like, green products, gently used things, etc. I even have a spot picked out (on harford road with red canoe and zekes and that new knitting store). I have always had a bit of an entrepreneurial bug in me, though my only experience actually running a business was a coffee shop, not a baby retail. And I know that in reality it would be craziness, and I would have to take out loans and then I would most likely go (even more) broke. And not to mention, I'm supposed to write a dissertation in the next couple years. But lately I have enjoyed the thought of dissing the diss and opening this store, with a playroom and community space where I can work with my baby in tow and meet and help other new parents and where people could buy good products in person rather than only online, which is where all the cloth diapering stuff is, at least when in baltimore. Its not the tea shop that I used to dream about opening, but I think there might be a market for it and it sounds fun. A little green shop for baby and me, and other babies, and you.

But, like I said, absolutely crazy.